“Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.” —Mother Teresa
Its days like these I need to remind myself of these words. Days when I need them the most.
Honestly it’s not a bad day or a good day, but a day where it’s just – going through the motions. These are the struggle days full of questions and insecurity for me.
For instance, today I feel accomplished. I feel like I didn’t really get anything done, and yet I went to work at my day job all day and since leaving, I’ve walked and fed the dogs, typed up future blog posts and read some of my book.
Perhaps today my mind simply needs rest From deeper issues and career decisions? Maybe my mind is just processing and I’m feeling the mechanism at work? Or maybe not everyday needs to be more than what it is.
It’s fascinating how it’s always easier to comfort someone else, to lift them up and make them laugh when we think they need us, But when it comes to compassion for ourselves it’s always the hardest.
Is it that we don’t believe we deserve it? That we think we haven’t earned it? or do we simply think it’s selfish to care for ourselves?
I keep hoping that the more I’m willing to treat myself with the same compassion as others. The more it will echo in my heart and in my head.
The short and easy speech I need to hear today… Relax!
I often wonder: How do I want to show up in this world?
There is a recent picture of me that says it all. It may not be how I always show up, but this is what I want!
TO BE: joyous, laughing, appreciative, authentic and in the moment
This is a snapshot from a series where four of us were out in New Paltz, NY
– my favorite place –
hiking. One friend stopped my husband and I for some romantic sweet pics. We, of course took it to the goofy place.
This is a love scene gone totally wrong…OR in my mind, truly and ever so right!
This is where I want to live…what I want to share.
Joy and wonder!
There are so many philosophies on how we should succeed in this world. I have always found it difficult to fit into the boxes created for success. I’ve struggled crazily to be able to express clearly what I want in my life and I often thought, maybe I’m just not smart enough or good enough.
In the past few years I have proven to myself that I am smart enough and that I am good at what I do. Yet I often still have a hard time finding the words to express it, to get others to understand what it is I want, what I need, etc.
All I know is that I feel it in my gut and I’m going crazy to get it out.
And even more over the past year, I have realized that a reason I have been struggling is because I was still working to fit into that box. A box I am now shedding. I have been working to find my voice, MY VOICE, not the voice of success, but the voice that calls out to who I am and who I want to be.
I highly recommend, especially for anyone in the arts who has difficulty finding the WORDS to watch Simon Sinek in this TED Talk “How great leaders inspire action”. It’s truly inspiring and eye-opening. You may find yourself…looking at you in a new way.
I act because it gives me a voice.
I act because it connects me to other people
I act because when I do it is an opportunity to share myself with the world
Age is oddly a timeless thing. Each year that passes isn’t a year lost but more life gained. We cannot know when that time will end so it goes on forever for each us, until it doesn’t.
I have learned in my time and with my age that it is the small moments, the people, and the part of me that shares it with whomever that matters. A date with my husband, a walk with my dogs, a glass of wine with friends, my performance on stage that others each experience in their own way….that is the truth and the meaning of life. What is shared and what is accepted by one’s self.
I am living in a time of my life that I am learning to appreciate the greatness that has been shared with me. No matter what I search for as my “purpose” each moment is ageless and endless as long as I hold them in my heart.
Each day I learn to breathe again and create new moments, new art, and new discoveries.
Today I share with you. This moment. These words. A small special piece of who I am.
Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude.