So Friday is my, get things done day. I don’t have to go into the city, which can kill a productivity day. I have a good list of to do’s and a number of wants. I’m working to challenge myself today with time management. It’s my nemesis. The lack of this skill has caused many hours of stress and anxiety over the years. Its not that I don’t get things done, I do. I’m just not efficient so its messy and often takes far longer than I think.
Along with my time goes my preclusion for distraction. I like to call it the Squirrel Factor. The joke we’ve all seen and heard where a dog is in deep focus and…BAM! A squirrel goes by and all is lost. Yes, I am saying I’m like a dog in that way. Something comes up; a text, an email, a request of some sort that has nothing to do with my focus at the moment and…BAM! I’m off and its incredibly difficult to get back on.
I’m certainly not going to fix this in a day, I accept that, but I want to be better. This is a start. I am actually writing this on Thursday for Friday. My goal is to write as many of my posts as possible at least a day ahead. It allows for consistency, planning and review. I don’t want all posts to be like this. Some need the authenticity of the moment, but not most. I hate having to rush or to push my daily envelope by posting at 11:55pm. Its stressful and messy and not who I want to be as a writer or an artist.
So far I have really served the three goals I set out to accomplish for these three months, March though May. I still have a month and a half, but I’m going strong and it feels great. Those three goals are a post a day, daily meditation and easing way back on the alcohol. Have I missed a day here and there? Sure, I’m not trying to be perfect. I am working to build consistency, trust in myself and well…to simply feel good. Its working.
Being almost half way through my goal I want to add on. This may be a bit more challenging, but a challenge is meant to be faced. I want to start creating posts ahead regularly and meditating by a certain time, lets say 11am. This is the time management thing. I figure one step at a time. I need to practice. I want to practice managing my work and trusting myself.
I’m not quite sure whats happening for me at the moment. Its a bit like a ski jump where I can’t see whats below me until I’ve already jumped (and I don’t ski). But I’m excited. For the first time in a long time I wake up every day ambitious and come home every night exhausted but grateful and happy. It’s incredibly exciting because really…this is just the beginning!